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5:36 AM, Total loss

Saturday, March 7, 2009

Before you do anything, please off that bloody annoying song over there >>

Well , it 's going to be 7 am soon .
I 'm still pondering over the problem .
Yeah the same old thing after 11 months .
I shall write it in this method since i like it .
Pardon me for the uber poor english . =/

Firstly, i would like to thank Eunice Seah & Charrise ,
whom really listened to my whining over her .
I 'm really in DEEP SHIT .Not over studies , friends nor family .
But it 's you once again .
Just like my shadow , those feelings can never go away =/

Binghao , Kavin & Eunice told me "好马不吃回头草"

Charrise : *sure will meet someone better de
*cos u still young
*no1: differences in thinking frm me and u
*no2: still long way lurhs..slowly..lmaos
*no3: i don't tink she'll be ur future wife
*=O

In response to Charrise , i told her that i dont really think of wife - material kinda thing yet .
Because i 'm still not ready to be a father? LOL ok not funny . Let 's carry on =x

Most of you told me , take 1 day off and think about it .
Limit myself 1 day ? 11 months have already pass.
This feeling still lurks inside me .
I wanna forget everything and move on too .
But 不是我不要，是我做不到。
The 7 months with you since 02/09/07 . You taught me alot .
Perhaps the most valuable lesson i ever had.
I 'll never regret or hesitate to say this to you.

I love you 我爱你私は愛する

Every single night , for the recent 1 month while you guys are sleeping .
I'm always infront of the com .
Doing what? Be a keyboard warrior .
When i was going close my eyes and sleep. I cant . Why?
The thoughts of her came by .
I 'll recall everything . Whatever we do .

I regret the way i treat you in the past no matter how many chances you gave me .
I ' dont treasure it . Instead i whine about it here and there .
If i was given a wish now ,
it 'll not be getting my 35 cm fringe back nor become a millionare
It would be refreshing a new start with you / restart everything
Aiya. You readers know what i mean lah .

Quoting from the messages that i texted Yueshi ( Yay your name 1st happy bo? ), Stella , Eleanor and Mavis .
I told them " Honestly , actually i dont have any feelings for the girl (c_a_e_) after her . Because i still cant forget her . So , sorry . =/ Decided to disclose these after 6 months.

I have a small heart .
IT can only fit 1 person.
Which is you .
I swear i never loved someone so deeply before.
Maybe you forget about it ,
those memories which remains in my mind up to now.
I remember once , i piggybacked you on a heavy downpour during midnight .
You laugh, you cry , you frown , you whine over the most silly things .
How you lie on my lap and fall asleep on many occasions.
Your silky hair with that scent , just like a maiden.
At that point of time , i 'm the happiest guy in the world =)

The first thing when we met after you come back from Japan .
You pass me a pendant with a necklace ,
It may not be the most expensive thing that i received
But, to me . It 's a treasure .
Up to now i still 'll clean up those dirt and let it shine.
Just like how you shine within me.

Finally , the last meeting ,
which was after your birthday celebration last year.
You gave me a last hug and told me "如果我们有緣份，以后我们还是会在一起 "
So should i leave it to fate and simply do nothing at all?
Or should i display some actions ?

But right now you are still the most important.
i ' m still in a total loss .
Sorry for that wall of text . And thanks for reading .
I think i have enough whining for now .

1. Go back and try , well at least i 'll try and i wont regret ?

OR

2. Just let bygones be bygones and move on ?

I duno lah . Fuck it , damn it . You guys decide for me .
Once again , pardon me for the poor english hor

Hua feng .